Don’t Let Your Mind Trick You
I’m not really a writer; I probably need an editor so please forgive my mistakes. I started writing this to get my thoughts out of my head. We all need an outlet to let out truth out. This is my truth mistakes an all.
It’s difficult to talk to people who know you because you are afraid of being judged. People who know I have fibromyalgia treat me as if I’m a delicate flower. The outings I used to get invited to, the invites have stopped. Even my family plans family time around me and my moods. It’s hard to have all that pressure on you, afraid of disappointing those that love you. No one wants to be the one that ruins family time. Just going to the mall sometimes is a struggle for me but afraid to tell my family I suffer through it. I know if they knew they would cancel their plans. I don’t want to be the kill joy all the time.
Having fibromyalgia changed my life detrimentally. I’m no longer the person I used to be. Sometimes I get so depressed thinking of the things I used to do, the person I was. I’ve been trying to come up with coping mechanisms to help me through those feelings. I know I can do better, be better. Fibromyalgia shouldn’t control my life, I should control fibromyalgia. Alhamdulillah my faith helps me stay positive and patient. Allah says what means, “Surely, Allah is with those who are As-Sabirin (the patient ones, etc.). (Surah 8 ayah 46).
I’ve read books, blogs and medical journals trying to understand fibromyalgia and the effects it has on your body and mind. I didn’t realize there’s a whole community out there providing support and education for those with and without Fibro. Those with fibromyalgia need a good support system around them. Having people who understand and sympathize with you helps more than most know. It has nothing to do with what you say; it’s all about your being there and supporting them. Most won’t admit that they need someone to help they’ll just go through life lonely without a support system. Life is supposed to be about living not being alone agonizing in pain staying closed in from everyone. You have to have faith that everything will work out for the best. Faith is a strong factor that many people take advantage of. Having hope and faith can lift your spirits especially since depression is prevalent among those with fibromyalgia. Stay strong and don’t let your mind trick you into thinking you’re good by yourself. Rely on Allah and put your trust in Him. Allah says what means, “And be patient; verily, Allah loses not the reward of the good-doers.” (Surah 11 ayah 115)